A little under 3 months ago, this post happened.
I was terrified, anxious, and having panic attacks every couple of hours. Cause that's just who I am when it comes to new things.
Well, I finished my last day of my first semester clinical rotation today! And guess what??
I MADE IT THROUGH!
Not once did a patient code on me (so far), only once did one of my patients have to have the Medical Emergency Team called on them, I didn't hurt anyone (at least not severely), and I had some really great nurses that I had the amazing opportunity to shadow. And I got to see open heart surgery, nbd :)
One of my favorite experiences from this semester happened on only the 2nd week of clinicals.
I was on the Neuro Rehab unit and had taken care of this certain patient the week before, as well as this day. This particular patient had the diagnosis of a CVA (Cerebral Vascular Accident) aka a Stroke.
When we went in to do the morning assessment, the patient was really excited to see us and told us to "Come look!" So we went over to the patient's bed, on the affected side of the body, where the patient was pointing at their fingers. The week before when I had taken care of this patient, they couldn't move their entire affected side at all. As I looked down at the fingers, I saw a slight wiggling! The patient was so so excited, which automatically made me excited as well! It was so awesome to be able to see even that tiny amount of progress and how much it meant to the patient.
While this might not seem like I huge experience, it got me thinking. I can get discouraged pretty easily over some non-essential things in my life, one of them being my lack a of dating life. I can get into a funk where my mind goes to a dark and scary place of loneliness and doubt.
Now, I have a way to get out of that funk.
While yes, I might not be dating, might not have done as well on that test, might not have gotten that job I applied for, etc, etc,
I can move my fingers.
I can walk on my own.
I can run if I want/need to.
I can dance.
I can feed myself, dress myself, shower myself, etc.
I need to be grateful for the small things, because they are big things for someone else.